Emotional abuse. The ugly thing nobody wants to talk about.

As stated in the title, we're gonna approach today the subject of abuse.
Emotional abuse, to be more exact.
The dictionary says that : 

1. Psychological abuse, also referred to as emotional abuse or mentalabuse, is a form of abuse characterized by a person subjecting or exposing another to behavior that may result in psychological trauma, including anxiety, chronic depression, or post-traumatic stress disorder.

Though it seems quite harsh, I guess everybody experiences some sort of emotional abuse at one point(even though it can be a milder form of it).
Cause emotional abuse doesn't necessarily lead to that. Usually, it leads to anxiety of course, cause you're getting scared of being involved with someone else. You feel too raw to expose yourself, to dare to be vulnerable again by letting another human being stepping into your personal space, you fear making room for themselves in your life and implicitly in your soul. In less words,  you're being scared to live again. 
Cause once you open yourself to someone and that person screws it badly for you, it's hard to even make baby steps in the right direction.
Some forms of emotional abuse are:

1. Humiliating or embarrassing you.
2. Constant put-downs.
3. Hypercriticism.
4. Refusing to communicate.
5. Ignoring or excluding you.
6. Extramarital affairs.
7. Provocative behavior with opposite sex.
8. Use of sarcasm and unpleasant tone of voice.
9. Unreasonable jealousy.
10. Extreme moodiness.
11. Mean jokes or constantly making fun of you.
12. Saying “I love you but…”
13. Saying things like “If you don’t _____, I will_____.”
14. Domination and control.
15. Withdrawal of affection.
16. Guilt trips.
17. Making everything your fault.
18. Isolating you from friends and family.
19. Using money to control.
20. Constant calling or texting when you are not with him/her.
21. Threatening to commit suicide if you leave

And these are only some forms of it.

Of course solutions exist. Not all of em are fortunate though for you and sometimes for others. You can always turn to casual hookups, emotionless encounters with people you don't wanna see again after it happens. But somehow it's not enough. Cause every encounter like this carves pieces out of you, makes you feel hollow so you need to continously feel the need to perpetuate it. Booze usually accompanies it and fuels it somehow, so those intense, short lived moments work for you. You become a junkie that needs its fix. And in this case it's being close to someone even for a bit of time, stealing some pleasurable, even ecstatic moments and then getting on with your life. And it's nothing wrong with it. But is it enough?

Some people call it living. Maybe it is, and I'm not gonna be a hypocrite, cause I've seen it happen to people. I call it postponing living. Cause you're not actually living. Being able to open yourself fully to someone, daring to be your own, vulnerable self again, that's living.Cause when that happens, well, it feels million times more intense, better and stronger and meaningful than all of those moments added up.
Back to emotional abuse though, cause that's today's topic, some people do this to you without even realizing it. And then there's the ones that actually do it on purpose. It's probably cause it's been done to them and subconsciously they reflect it on you or there's the small possibility of them having a mental disease. 

The solution it's quite simple. Get the f away from em. Like, immediately. You don't deserve that. And never let yourself be manipulated into thinking it's your fault, cause most of the times it ain't. They're just good at playing the master puppeteer and you're so wrapped around in them threads that you don't see clearly anymore.
What you can do instead is to not let anyone put you down. You are the most important person in your life, even though it sounds like a cliche or it sounds selfish that's the honest truth. Don't let anybody bring you down. People should consider it a privilege if you let them in your life, near your heart, close to you.
Emotional relationships and relationships in general should be based on respect, connection, admiration. You deserve that. I mean it. YOU DESERVE THAT.

And you can always recover from it. It takes time but when it happens you'll be stronger, a better version of yourself.  It's the one that dares to be himself/herself again, that there's to trust again, to love again, that's strong, not the one that runs away from it. Grow some wings and learn to fly with them!
Instead of a conclusion, I'm gonna share with  you something that somehow became my personal mantra :

I no longer have patience for certain things, not because I’ve become arrogant, but simply because I reached a point in my life where I do not want to waste more time with what displeases me or hurts me. I have no patience for cynicism, excessive criticism and demands of any nature. I lost the will to please those who do not like me, to love those who do not love me and to smile at those who do not want to smile at me.

I no longer spend a single minute on those who lie or want to manipulate. I decided not to coexist anymore with pretense, hypocrisy, dishonesty and cheap praise. I do not tolerate selective erudition nor academic arrogance. I do not adjust either to popular gossiping. I hate conflict and comparisons. I believe in a world of opposites and that’s why I avoid people with rigid and inflexible personalities. In friendship I dislike the lack of loyalty and betrayal. I do not get along with those who do not know how to give a compliment or a word of encouragement. Exaggerations bore me and I have difficulty accepting those who do not like animals. And on top of everything I have no patience for anyone who does not deserve my patience.

As a final thought : Love your life, live your life. Love's life and viceversa.

http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2014/10/13/21-warning-signs-of-an-emotionally-abusive-relationship/